Week 8 MKMMA — Telling on myself!!!

Okay, I am telling on myself….I have missed the requirements for this week – been struggling so much. I don’t have much to share, as I’m so far behind and honestly, I feel so lost.

I haven’t created my recording or my poster as of yet. I’ve encountered lack of support and my guide is not in contact what-so-ever…. I am on my own besides the wonderful group of people that have been encouraging me through the blogs and Twitter. All I want is guidance, contact and encouragement from the person that’s “supposed” to be providing it- and cannot get it.  Knowing what I know now that I am the creator and have created the support to be non-existent… I ask myself, WHY? What will I gain by this?  Aha moment… I don’t like to be judged, controlled or told what to do…. Am I creating this scenario so that I can be a victim?  Or that I can finger point and say OMG it’s not my fault, look, I didn’t have anyone to truly guide me. LOL  It’s truly ironic to sit back and right this post and then laugh out loud at myself knowing that the truth just surfaced.  As of today, I STOP saying “I wish”  I had a great guide or “I wish” I had the support structure, etc. and start saying “I will” create a life of my dreams no matter what!!!! My predominant mental attitude is what counts!!!!

“We all know that this is by no means easy. Mental habits are difficult to control but it can be done and the way to do it is to begin at once to substitute constructive thought for destructive thought. Form the habit of analyzing every thought.  if it is necessary, if its manifestation in the objective will be a benefit, not only to yourself, but to all whom it may affect in any way, keep it; treasure it; it is of value; it is in tune with the Infinite; it will grow and develop and produce fruit an hundred fold.  On the other hand, it will be well for you to keep this quotation from George Matthews Adams, in mind, “Learn to keep the door shut, keep out of your mind, out of your office, and out of your world, every element that seeks admittance with no definite helpful end in view.”

This was definitively my lesson for the week…hard one indeed 😦  How do I keep the door shut (control my every thought)?  I catch myself in my thoughts going in the wrong direction (like in the past) and I do analyze my every thought but to my determent my ego steps in and wants to take over with 100 reasons why I am wasting my time  (the old blueprint still alive and kicking up a storm…..argggg

“Constructive imagination means mental labor, by some considered to be hardest kind of labor, but, if so, it yields the greatest returns, for all the great things in life have come to men and women who had the capacity to think, to imagine, and to make their dreams come true.”

Thank God, I have a great imagination (LOL) This was definitively the easiest part of my homework/exercises.  I love it so much that I do it on numerous times through the day…when I am on my breaks, lunch and dinner.  Also reading GS has made a profound difference in the way I love people and myself. Thank you Scroll II.

I will focus this week on what’s important and take another shot….just like a camera…

Have an awesome week and much love to all ❤

 

 

 

Week 7- Trials and Tribulations

I can’t believe it’s week 7!!!!! I have been going through hoops and bounds, getting up at 5am and going to bed at midnight just doesn’t work well for me…..can someone enlighten me and let me know if there is an easier way…arggggg 😦

I am not complaining, don’t get me wrong but I do get a little edgy if I don’t get enough rest. LOL

In section 13 of lesson 7 I read…..Clearness and accuracy are obtained only by repeatedly having the image in mind. Each repeated action renders the image more clear and accurate than the preceding, and in proportion to the clearness and accuracy of the image will the outward manifestation be. You must build it firmly and securely in your mental world, the world within, before it can take form in the world without.  Incorporating section 13 and OG Scroll 2 at my work place where I had the opportunity to meet a superintendent that was categorized as a “mean person and a bully”…. just before I had the opportunity to meet him I clearly visualized him in my mind as being a gentle and loving soul and in silence I said “I love you” and the most amazing thing happened…. he was gentle and sweet as a pie to me and he couldn’t do enough for me.  BAM… magic!!!   I love it ❤

Wow! Overwhelmed is probably not the right word by the intense nature of this Master Key Alliance/ Master Key Experience! So much is going on in my life and so much personal breakdowns and breakthroughs. I wanted to quit many times this week but then I realized that it doesn’t get easier, I only get stronger…..What a week!

Today I feel like a cruise liner with 20 anchors that has been holding me down all my life….no wonder I am so bloody tired….isn’t it ironic that I created this blooming mess!!!!!   I totally get that I was choosing to be anchored as I had a huge pay off and that was to keep my pain alive and on purpose (making everybody wrong and of course, myself self righteous)….. Today I choose “Forgiveness and letting go” and I am finally feeling free from the chains that kept me captive….my boat is moving towards new horizons!

 Anchors Away……….

Week 6 Progression

Moving into week 6….Reading other members posts to help me with my BLOG this week and I am grateful for all the insights.  Thank you!   I am starting the more passive and visual input of the progression, programming my subconscious with the message I want to receive!

So the journey continues yet the overwhelm and mixed emotions of things that I was feeling this week. I am not discouraged, it just simply was more difficult this week then the previous weeks due to my work load and traveling. Yet as I write this I realized that  I will never be free until I free myself from the prison of my false thoughts (old programs) that are not serving me any longer on my new journey.

For five weeks now I got used to observing shapes and colors, now it´s time to utilize this new habit and ”the mysterious force that never sleeps” through conscious appropriation of the habits for the benefit of my DMP.

By posting the shapes connected to my SMART goals all around my personal space, but also by creating a movie poster mirroring my DMP and placing it in my line of vision was a creative task as my space is tiny…..did I say tiny? Oh, yes I did 🙂   Even though it’s tiny, it works great as I am starting to really internalizing my DMP into my subconscious mind!

The Subby is all about emotions and the experience of emotions and faith is all about proving through my actions what I truly believe. Connecting this means that I am starting to do stuff that connects Subby to my DMP.

Now I know that my change is not going to just magically appear without me paying attention by looking within and doing the work that’s required.

With attention I will be able to overcome obstacles of any kind that appear in my path onward, and the only way to acquire this wonderful power is by practice and attaching a strong emotional feeling to the process of concentration.  This creates a voltage potential and gets the thought intention moving to manifestation…..Practice, Practice, Practice!!!!

I am grateful for another week with MKMMA and you.

Week 5 – Opinions

What a challenging week it’s been!!!!  I have written a post and it disappeared after I published it….damn 😦

Honestly, I thought this exercise will be a breeze… yeah right!   Opinionated.. ME…never! It was amusing and interesting at the same time to sit as an observer and watch my thoughts and what I have noticed that I am always giving opinions without being asked.  Is this called imposing my will on others?  Never mind, that will be just another opinion… yikes.

It was rude awakening to realize that I have done that all my life to others and the sad part is, I wasn’t even present that I was doing it.   Aha moment…. I totally get it now that this is why my personal, family and business relationships sucked big time.

I am taking the time before I speak to distinguish if that was an opinion or not.  This thought process is serving me well.  Also, I realized that I have taken things so damn personally and that wasn’t serving me.  From today I am choosing to be an observer and unattached even to the things that are close to my heart…. sigh.   I am no longer stressed out and ironically, I feel at peace and ease.  That was a miracle in itself.  How Powerful is that!

I have no opinion….

Have a Blessed Day

Week 4 MasterKey

What an incredible journey it has been thus far and it continues with The Master Key system. Self realization is hitting hard home that I was living my life by default…OMG!

This week learning and uncovering the “I” within, the Infinite Source that has been imprisoned and dormant patiently waiting for me to wake the hell up.  Now I know the importance to fine tune my Definite Purpose.

Doing my daily exercises are finally becoming a habit which is making a huge difference in my life.  I can feel my emotions excel and the joy, vigor and fun is definitively present.  This is not to say that my old Blueprint doesn’t pop up….oh yes it does!!!!  Today it was a total nag and telling me that this is just a waste of time and “forget about it.”  Thank God that I am present when it shows up and in that moment I choose to stay on my new self discovery journey with passion as I see my DMP come alive.

I can be what I will to be.

I always keep my promises

Week 3 MasterKey

WOW! What an incredible week it’s been or should I say a roller coaster ride.

Being on this new journey of self discovery and going within is not as easy as it sounds. Actually, it has been a difficult one indeed! I hated homework when I was in school and to say the least, I dislike it even more now….yikes!

I am so present and aware how scattered my old blueprint is (it truly scares me) and  how it has not served me up to now. My conscious mind “gate keeper” has been asleep for many years and the wrong programming has directed and influenced my life up to now…….NO MORE!  I am finally taking a stand for myself and my greatness! Who am I to play small and accept mediocrity.

Today, I start my new life and break the walls that were built on these rocky foundations and false pretenses. One brick at a time.

I always keep my promises

Week 2 MasterKey

We just started our second week in MKMMA and I am going through a major shift in my life.  As much as I have been resisting blogging and digital connections, today, I feel soooo liberated and pretty proud of myself for just doing it and ignoring my old blue print…..BAM!!! done

Being present to my Dharma and doing my homework, my life is changing and a new opportunity has opened up for me as a Live-in Nanny that excites me beyond belief.  Just 2 weeks ago, this wasn’t even possible.  Miracles do happen if you are in the flow and keep your promises. And I always keep my promises!

I can hardly wait to see my growth in 25 weeks.  I love my life!!!!

Week 1 MasterKey

I was so grateful and blessed that I was introduced to MKMMA by Carolyn Sokil. Thank you!

During my application process and even up to now I am filled with feelings of overwhelm, excitement and apathy at the same time. Boy, am I resisting this course! The more that I resist makes me more aware that I just have to do it and take actions that are required to build my self-confidence and the life of my dreams.

Also, being technically challenged/handicapped is very frustrating and honestly, this is not an experience that I am looking forward to at my age. Feeling confused….arrrrg! Oh well, that’s only a story and I have committed to embrace this course as my life depends on it and trust me, it does 😉

So here we go…. Week 1 Webinar, OMG, it was so long that I just couldn’t stay focused…information overload!!!! Saying that, I have taken the liberty to listen to the webinar the following day at my pace, and got sooooo many golden nuggets. Very informative!  Thank you!

When I was digging dip to write my DMP and the Blog, I found myself in a place of resistance and my thoughts going hundred miles an hour…: “If I knew what my Dharma is, then, I wouldn’t need to be here”,…LOL   The great news is that I am finally looking within for my answers and not resisting the process.  Bring it on! The more feelings of discomfort the faster my subconscious blueprint will change.

I look forward to our Week 2.

Agnes Bartusek

I always keep my promises